Last month, I committed to a complete social media detox.
I craved clarity. I needed space to hear myself. I had to challenge myself to really sit with the uncomfortable triggers in my day to day without automatically reaching for my phone to drown them out.
Nearing the end of my month-long cleanse, I found myself less antsy and more relaxed. I wasn't reaching for my phone habitually any more. I made eye contact with my kids more often. I listened. I found myself improving on the habit of sitting with each present moment and whatever it was bringing to me. I didn't find myself fretting over "missing out," or falling off the social media radar.
Instead, I actually find myself a bit panicked at the thought of returning to social media use.
I know that sounds strange. And some of you may be thinking, " So just don't." Duh. But for a work from home mom who relies on social media to both connect to audiences as well as share my work, realistically I have to at least consider the possibility of returning at some point.
And sincerely, I do miss conversing and connecting with the kind and loving folks I've had the pleasure of meeting online!
One recent evening, my partner out for the night and my kids finally in bed, I found myself with a rare chunk of time just for me. "Take a bath?" I pondered. Well, diapers were in the wash, so that went out the window.
I'm not much of a television viewer, and yet I found my hand reaching for the remote. I flicked on Netflix and immediately stumbled on the following documentary (which is lovely, by the way):
I was familiar with Minimalism prior to that particular evening, thanks to a connection with this blogger.
My partner and I have discussed moving many times. We've lived in our current abode for the past nearly-eight years, and since purchasing it have added two more kidlets to our crew. We've talked about our want of more space more times than I can count. More space for all of the things we have (and desire to manifest).
While beginning my journey into shifting my relationship with abundance, and contemplating what that means to me, I found myself thinking that I wanted the means to afford whatever I wanted. A larger home. Whatever material possessions I imagine might be fun to own. The things I imagine might bring some peace into my life. The stuff I thought I might need in order to run a successful business and parent well. (Even though, yes, I was well aware that we need so very little in reality).
Christmas time always, always, ALWAYS has me drafting emails, initiating conversation, and negotiating the landmines of "not too many toys for them, please!!!" when it comes to my children. This past holiday season was no different. (I'm sure I could write multiple posts just on that alone-- how to navigate the tricky world of teaching children gratitude and not having your entire home morph into a sea of plastic and noise-making gadgets).
I've also daydreamed many times over the years about paring down. I've found myself wistfully thinking, "If we had less stuff, perhaps I wouldn't be spending so much time cleaning up and nagging."
And so, with all of this said, I officially announce 2017 as the start of my journey into Minimalism.
Maybe it isn't about acquiring the abundance to have it all. Maybe having it all is coming back to what we really are, and simply drawing to us what is a reflection of that.
My partner is on board and I've taken to beginning with our bedroom. I cannot wait to feel the freedom that comes with LETTING GO! Letting go in more ways than one: the material clutter that in turn clutters up the brain. The "stuff" that seemingly attaches itself to old emotional stories, convincing me that I need it to know who I was and where I am heading.
One of my core desired feelings for 2017 is Spaciousness. Mmmm.....
You're likely wondering what this Minimalism business has to do with social media detoxes. (Or, maybe you're not).
For me, it's coming back to that desired feeling. Spaciousness. And it relates to another desire of mine. Expansiveness.
I crave to radiate myself clearly. To expand from the centre of my being, from who I really am. To create, share, and exist from LOVE.
I am recognizing more and more that one possible path to these desires is to clear out what isn't me. The old stories and energies. It also follows that I get clearer on differentiating who I am and what I want, versus the energy of others.
Hence, my on-going goals to clear out my physical space, and clean up and get deliberate with my online/virtual spaces.
I hope you'll join me as I continue to explore and share on my journey!
Wishing you a deeper connection with your core desired feelings.
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